Assalamualaikum...
It has been years since I last blog. Not sure of my intention now but I believe nobody is reading now. It is now 2018 and I have 40 mins to blog, shower and dress up before I meet my cousin Fenah to cross over the causeway to meet her parents. Her "grandmother" aka dad's mom aka obek Siti just recently passed away on Monday afternoon which surprised all of us.

Yes, people leave and never return and that was what happened the past years. I realised I stopped blogging when she came closer to our lives and now that I totally left her for good, I'm starting again. Same goes to a few other people I purposely choose to distance myself from. One of them is the LBF. There is no lifetime in being close friends to a male friend. It was a little lie I told him, because of my experience in expressing my feelings to Z, so I thought why not I just tell him the same thing so that it will be awkward and that is it. Of course the feelings for F isn't there. It was more of a comfort feeling he cast on me whenever I talk and tell him things but nothing more than that. Not like how I felt towards A which I thought he is my soulmate. Haha silly me. Now that F really cut off all his social media, I miss having to see his ig stories and disturb him. May he and everyone else be protected in everything they do.

It is the holiday season now. Still feeling restless and no peace to watch my shows because I keep thinking of having work to do but actually there isn't! haha. TBH, there is lor. The contract for my instructor which was supposed to be done yet somebody screwed it up. ok, I can't talk about it here or I'll be jobless! No overseas plan for this year bcoz sis shifted my plan to K next June(InsyaAllah). Too cold! I cannot! Even the aircon here I couldn't stand the coldness.

Till the next post.
Salam.